Newsflash.
It's been a few months since I have written. Just now, I went back and read through my previous posts from this year. They left me in tears. I felt those emotions that I was feeling at the time all over again. I remembered how painful my year has been. BUT... I have great news! It's what I've been waiting for for so long. Finally, the mutual feelings I've been dreaming of are being reciprocated. He loves me!!!! I have had the most amazing couple of months. Full of spontaneity, laughs, dates, sleepovers and affection. I have felt wanted and loved in a way that I honestly hadn't felt for more than a year. The effort that I have seen from his side has been amazing, and has left me smiling day after day after day. It's all I have ever wanted! BUT... (you're wondering, how could there be another 'but'? Me too) I am so scared. Scared that my hopes are so high right now. Scared that I'm so happy. I'm scared because what am I going to do ...