time to find yourself.


Everyone talks about 'finding themselves', questioning 'who they are' or 'what they stand for'. It's a hard concept to grasp and one that I have been trying to ascertain for a good few years now.
I remember being fifteen, and discussing with my best friend the lyrics to a Taylor Swift song, 'you just might find who you're supposed to be'. We sat and talked about this concept and I had always had some fascination with it, some interest in taking some time to 'find myself'.
Three years on, and I still don't know whether I've found it. As we all begin to grow up, different things start happening, it seems as though it's important to know who you are, what you stand for, your passions, thoughts, morals, everything. And to an extent, I do know. I know that I am a girl with strong values, and I know that I want to do everything I can in life to leave my mark on the world. But as an independent person, how exactly would I define myself?
My friends are all beginning to become their own people; some for the better, others for the worse. But everything in my life is so stable, so constant, so, well, boring. Don't get me wrong, I love what I have right now in life, but I question whether this stability is providing me with such certainty that I will not have that time to myself to discover this struggled concept 'who am I?'.
Maybe I will never know, but I'm going to do all it takes to ensure I have done my best to find out. Surrounding myself with the right people, the right attitudes, the lot. I'm still unsure of what needs to be done, but I'm sure of one thing;

                                                 it's time to find myself.

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